So many questions unanswered. Not sure who or what to think anymore.
I just hope she is at peace or happy either way.
I wrote this poem after she passed away not long after she broke up with a really great guy.
I feel awful that I introduced them to each other.
Like I brought this turmoil into his life and I feel obligated somehow but I think he has moved on and so now I can as well.
Emily, if you are still around. I love you and wish you would let me know you are okay.
If you have passed away, I hope you are with Our Lord.
Shut up this silence.
Alone in this empty room.
No one to share the pain.
Time won't heal all things
The ache remains the same.
A wish that comes too late
A dream that won't come true.
A desire to have his love
But pride just ran it through.
When you reach His feet and He opens that book
Remembering the pure honesty you selfishly took
Decide then and there who it is you deceived
His choice will be the judgment you shall receive.
Shut up this silence,
I can only hear the scream of the memories I tortured in this non-existent dream.
Shut up this silence
You cannot hurt me now
Yet the agony of loneliness will finally make me bow.
Open up your soul
To the Maker of us
He will give you salvation
In this you must trust
So as I lay my head and you move into your grave
My heart will be forgiving of the mistakes that you have made.
See you when I get there
whenever that may be.
My timely friend of existence
Your debt to me is free.
Libbi 3/15/11 - In Memory of Emily